Have you ever had so much running through your mind and wanted to put it down on paper or type on your blog? Have you ever had a horrible time getting to the point where you can actually calm all your thoughts down enough to get there? I feel like that is constantly the point I am at these days. With that being said, here I go about trying ...
Once again, I am struggling with the situation of Dylan going to school in a public system. Actually to be quite honest, I am having a hard time with Dylan going to school at all. I am so confused on all the thoughts and convictions (I think!) going through my mind.
This past year, we sent Dylan to pre-k at a local preschool. My friend is the teacher and I really felt like I could control a little more. He has loved it and done great! However, I cannot shake the feeling that it was not as God wanted me to do. I sent him mostly because I was tired. I was tired of the continuous questions and fighting and most of all, I was tired - physically- from being pregnant. I was tired of trying to defend my homeschooling to my family and friends. I didn't think I could do it.
So I came up with all kinds of good reasons we should send him into the school system (I know that pre-k is not a huge thing but to me, it felt as if it was.). I even started trying to get Andy excited about potentially putting him in the school system permanently ( I am a planner..). All the while, once again, feeling God tell me it isn't His plan for my family.
I am struggling...
How do I sort through all these voices in my head? How do I talk to Andy about homeschooling again? Will God provide the patience? How will I stand up to people in my life?
Questions... Questions... Questions...
1 comments:
questions are always a good place to start! My kids have been in private christian school, public school, and homeschool. feel free to fire your questions my way.
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